sept 22, 2019..... mood: loopy, tired, sick

haiii :p. i finally robotripped last night!!! although i still didnt take A LOT, i managed to actually have a good high; i felt like i was floating, euphoria, and music sounded AMAZING!!! i was chill and felt numb but also felt SUUUPER nauseous (d'uh). its been 12 hours and I still feel like vomiting,,,ugh.....im super hungover. i feel like im in a dream rn. i was anxious this morning cuz my pupils were still rly dialated but no one noticed. also, my dad made me do yardwork for like 3 hours, which was 3 times harder since i felt like shit. watevr, it was worth it imo cuz i had fun and listened to vaporwave ●‿●.

I wanna get a drawing tablet for christmas because i wanna experiment with drawing with photoshop. i think i will always like traditional art more but still, it'll broaden my horizions. the only problem??? DRAWING TABLETS R EXPENSIVE ( ;´Д`). i cri.

P.S i wanna post art on this site but i dont like anything i make, soooo.....sry. but ill still try to post sum stuff

sept 14, 2019..... mood: anxious, excited

helloooooo! today was chill, slept till 2:00 pm sooo i wasted most of the day. but i did go to the mall to buy some shoes (both of my vans have holes at the bottom D:), and I'm getting doc martens ヽ(‘ ∇‘ )ノ!! I've been wanting them for a while soo i'm rlly happy! also, i think i might robotrip tonight. why? because i'm a dumbass bitch that make poor life choices.....and i'm content with that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. i did my research tho and i'm not gonna take too much. i know DXM isnt that good but i'm too scared to smoke weed since i think my dad might smell it. watevr, whats the worst that could happen (other than my nervous system shutting down :/). in conclusion, i'm dumb. have a good night!

UPDAte: i am a bit high rn and its ok i guess. i feel chill but also nauseous. i think i need more to get a better high but i dont want to since my mom might notice. i also dont wanna vomi. will probs try again but with higher mg dose and when i know mu mom wont notice. gn :P

sept 10, 2019..... mood: tired, calm

suuuppp. school is not that bad so far but i'm always sooo tired! i literally cant keep myself awake in social class and i slept in LA (but we were watching a movie so idc). anyways, im making a website in my com tech class. idk what to make it about since i already have a blog. watever, u can view it here! it's not finished tho...maybe ill use it as a practice site. its raining and its really peaceful!! im probs gonna have a cig and go to bed! GNNN (◠‿◠✿)

sept 3, 2019..... mood: satisfied, tired

HAIIII! today wasnt that bad. i got up early cuz i thought school started at regular time (9:00 am) but for seniors, it started at 2:00 today. luckily i found out before i got there but i could have slept in ;-;. BUUUT my TA teacher seems nice and this semester is easy (i have all the arts :D). also, i updated this site a lot; i havent added too many new thingz but i added most images to my dashboard instead of hotlinking!!

i feel kinda guilty cuz i havent been drawing often, i think i get lazy during summer. but i have AP art this semester so hopefully ill get back on track! byeeeeee :p

sept 2, 2019..... mood: grumpy,moody, giddy

hi!! today is the last day of summer, so im really fucking sad about that :(. its my last year (i'm a senior) but that also scares meeee!! what am i gonna do with my life? anyways, i rlly h8 hs; i understand education is important or watevr but i dislike most of my teachers, most of the people, and especially the pointless work...watevr ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. anyways, i went to pride yesterday with a couple of friends. it was super fun and we just walked around 4 a few hours! i showed on one my friends this site becuz he also likes old web stuff, but i didnt send him this url...tbh i dont want anyone i know irl to look at this site that often. i only showed him cuz of the aesthetics but i dont rlly want him to look at it anymore. it kind of just a private little thing i have 4 myself, but i dont want to hurt his feelings cuz i do like him! idk ⊙﹏⊙.

i also rlly want to get stoned since i havent in a while but its suuuper hard when u have parents! i feel like i talked about weed a lot with my friends yesterday, so i also dont wanna seem like a poser bout it (like smoking being a personality trait etc) but literally none of my close friends smoke, so i feel rlly tense. but i can wait!!! im almost 18, so when i turn legal age ill tell my parents then (◠︿◠✿) have a gr8 day!!!! thx 4 reading my 1st diary entry ^-^